This I recall to my mind, Therefore I have hope. The LORD’S lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. (Lam 3:21-23)
I had a good day yesterday, but also a draining one. I finally made it to visit my local assembly. It felt good to walk in class and have everyone excited about my finally being there again. I have no idea when I will return.
When I got up yesterday, I could already feel the drain in my body, but I really wanted to visit and to go to the store afterward. We live so far from everywhere, I did not want Dave to have to come all the way back to get me.
We went to the next state to a Kroger Marketplace. Our “local” Kroger (which is at least 45 minutes away for us one way) is smaller and does not offer all the same things. I enjoyed the walking around and finding some good deals on foods we needed. But it was draining. I knew when I got up in the morning I would pay a price for all the energy expenditure.
Now, before anyone tries to say I “cursed” myself with an energy drain and that I should have instead thought I would be just “fine” and fully energized…just stop. There is such a thing as common sense and knowing your body and what it needs. I believe in healing and in miracles. Yet, I have also seen folks declaring themselves “well” all during the whole week of their being sick. Hello! If you were well, you would not have symptoms. I do not see that as faith…I see it as lying and trying to force something to happen.
Yes, G-d heals. But He also allows us to experience the follies of our decisions and the results of living in a sin tainted world. If G-d is healing you, He is just going to do it…as I have heard of happening. He is not going to drag it out for as long as the sickness would normally run its course! It might be a multi step healing, but if He is healing, there will be clear evidence of a supernatural touch.
Anyway, I did indeed experience fallout from my trip yesterday. This morning, I could not get up until around 11. I have been using my walking stick part of the time. I have no choice but to be up because I have to wash the bedding today. It has been a couple of months since I have been able to do it due to being drained and sick. But it is getting done today.
So, why the Bible verse above? That is the verse that came to me as I was lying in bed early in the morning. I always try to start my day talking with Hashem, even before getting out of bed. And that verse came to mind.
I am very grateful for His lovingkindnesses aka mercies aka grace and for His compassion. He has touched me in so many ways during my lifetime and really shown Himself to be my Protector and Provider, Leader and Guider.
So, no matter how I feel or what energy levels I have, I am grateful and I know I am blessed. I am going to spend eternity with Him in the new world. It just does not get any better than that…to know this life is temporary and where I will be in the next.