When you have more questions than answers regarding the direction of your life, how do you handle it?
I have blogs that I started because they are (were) a good outlet for my love of writing and sharing my thoughts and experiences. The anonymous ones were good for processing some life circumstances. Although I do rotate between them, they are almost all basically neglected…at least to my way of thinking. Do I let them go? Do I continue on as I am now? Do I set aside time to spend on them more regularly? I think it is important to consider why am I writing and to whom.
We are facing a possible move. Will our unfinished Beit-Shalom sell so we can move? Or will we stay here? Or will something work out that we can finish part of it and rent it out? If we move, will we become a burden to our son and daughter-in-love who offered to move us out there before taking in two of our granddaughters? Or will we become a blessing to them? Will we end up stuck (so to speak) in their house, unable to afford our own place due to financial limitations? Or will things change, enabling us to afford to get our own house there? If we end up having to stay here, will we be able to at least finish three key things on the house and property that would make staying here doable for Dave with his stenosis?
Will Dave get the disability he deserves? Or will we have to live on his lower early Social Security? The answer to that will affect us whether we stay here or live in Texas.
Will my son be able to graduate in June 2015? Or will he need another semester? If he needs another semester, will he still receive SS?
Will I be a good caregiver for my sweet Dave? He is in so much pain and pushes himself to do life.
How will we get things cleaned up, packed, sorted, thrown out?
What role will music play in my life? Photography? Graphics? Education?
It isn’t easy having unanswered questions. I/we need to rely upon our heavenly Abba who knows all the answers to these. We need to rest in His knowing, in His Spirit, in His plans.