Lately, we have been walking on water. That is the image the L-rd has given to me of our family. We have no income. Dave’s unemployment has run out and, although he has applied for jobs persistently, nothing is opening up except for a job that is 1300 miles away. That job would require Dave to sleep in the van during his training and we would have to stay here as there is no housing in that area. After training, he would move into an employees only trailer.
With only one vehicle, I cannot also look for work. We have had a vehicle promised to us, but only if Dave takes the out-of-state job. Only then, unless the L-rd provides a vehicle some other way, will I be able to have a vehicle enabling me to look for work.
In many ways, things look dire. However, is that how Abba wants us to see our situation? We have never been without food, clothing and shelter. Never! He has always provided in one way or another. And He is providing even now. The guys are getting odd jobs here and there and our bills are being paid.
True faith is exercised when you have nothing to fall back on. As long as Dave had unemployment, we were not really having to totally depend upon Abba. Now we are in that wonderful place of total dependence and, once again, we are seeing Him move through His people. It is amazing.
The hardest thing about this is not the need, though. It is the fact that our family is facing a very likely separation of unknown length. And yet, even that is really OK. If that is what our Abba requires of us, then so be it. We want to be used of Him in every way possible. After the training, this job could possibly allow us to get some things done that we simply cannot do any other way (although Abba could choose to do it another way). It would also allow us to be once again in a place of being able to help others. We really miss that.
As for the lack of vehicle and me being able to work outside the home, well, if I am truly trusting Abba then I am able to accept that He clearly does not want me working outside the home…at least not right now! And that is OK. All things will come about according to His will and purpose and plan. He loves us and will take good care of us no matter how this turns out. We WILL have food, clothing and shelter.
What we most need to do right now is to not look at our situation, but instead keep our eyes upon Yeshua. In that way, like Peter, we will walk on water and not sink. It was only when Peter took his eyes off of Yeshua that he began to sink. And even in that instance, Yeshua reached out His hand and lifted him up.
I will close with a photo of one of Abba’s provisions…the wood stove. It is a constant reminder of His love for us as we snuggle up in its warmth. I know, I really need to put up other photos and tell more about the wood stove. Suffice it for now to say that this is a photo of the first fire!