What Am I Willing to Endure?

I wrote this on December 12, but for some reason did not publish is. So, here it is. It still fits, although I can know add that we have money for wood stove pipe!

I haven’t written much lately, for a variety of reasons. Some of it has to do with not feeling all that great, some of it has to do with being busy, some of it has to do with being cold. It is hard to concentrate when I am cold, although I have learned that I am a lot warmer if I keep my feet warm!

A non-profit was supposed to fix or replace our heat pump, as well as put in some missing insulation and seal up all the little places where heat can leak out. Well, they did the audit about 7 weeks ago now and it was a fight to find out that they are not going to take care of us. They never let us know so that we could pursue another avenue. However, the organization they got our names from is going to try to do something. We are now waiting to hear what, if anything, they will be able to do.

So, it is a bit cold in the house. We could buy more space heaters and get it warmer, but it is already going to cost us a fortune in heating. The walls are insulated, but not the attic or crawl space. We had the money to take care of the whole house, but the one holding the money gave the last payment before we were ready to have it finished. By the time we were ready, the guy had gone out of business and the money was gone. Such is life. We have no hard feelings toward either of them.

The Lord is providing other money, but we cannot use it just yet because our bigger problem is the heat source. If we finish insulating, but are still using space heaters, we will have huge bills. On the other hand, if we get the wood stove in place…even without good insulation we will be ahead of the game. We have plenty of already dry wood on our property. The Amish use wood stoves and some of them have little to no insulation either. We want to be wise with our resources, being good stewards and making the most of them.

We are being creative through all of this. There are layers of cardboard in the attic and we can feel the difference in our heat loss with each layer. We do a load of laundry so that we can dry it in the morning when we need to shower in the laundry room. vent for the dryer goes into the room instead of outside. We heat different parts of the house during the day than we do at night. We bring the sun in during the day and put cardboard in the windows at night. Some windows have cardboard all the time. We are going to put plastic over the windows. Some of them will have black plastic to absorb the heat of the sun. All of it is making a difference!

Some would say that we should move. Having checked into that before when we were in the RV, I already pretty much know what is out there. Unless we sell the land, there really isn’t much out there for which we qualify. A buyer would pretty much have to have cash because getting a loan on this property with the house unfinished would be extremely difficult. I checked into that, too.

I write all of that for a reason. Any way you look at it, we are going to be cold for a while longer, unless the Lord warms the days and I was thinking about that this morning. YHWH has brought us here to this place. We are already starting to minister to others. He knows what we are going through and there is nothing that He does not either cause or allow.

Then I started thinking about all that my Messiah, Yeshua/Jesus has done for me. He endured horrible things on my behalf. And the question that came to mind this morning is: what am I willing to endure for Him?

We have endured so much discomfort and tough times already. Am I willing to endure more discomfort as I await the next part of His plan for us? After all He has brought us through, am I going to give up now? The doors of provision are not closed. In fact, they are opening more. Will I be patient as I await the final outcome…allowing patience to do its perfect work in me?

Just thoughts running through my head and heart. We want to be open to hear His voice telling us if He wants us to leave here. If He was to open the door for us elsewhere, we would be willing to go through it. And if He does not? What if He is saying to just hold tight, that He will get us through this, too? Will we obey Him? Will we also honor all those who gave of themselves and their finances to help us get into Beit-Shalom? We want only to be obedient to Him…whatever the call and wherever it leads.

What about you? What do you see that you need to just endure for the sake of His kingdom? What has He brought you through already? Do you see the light of His glory at the end of your tunnel? Will you stand strong…being open to His will for your life and obedient to His call? I hope you will, just as I hope we will, too!

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About Abigail

We are a couple who loves the Creator...the G-d of the bible...Elohei Avraham, Yitzchak b'Ya'akov, who expresses Himself in many ways, including: Abba/Daddy/Father, Yeshua/Jesus/Son and Ruach HaKodesh/Holy Spirit.
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